I’ve got some Christmas posts in the hopper so I don’t have to work on stuff over the holiday. This’ll be my last somewhat current post though I hope they’ll all be coherent. Even if the sky falls, I’m sticking to my long neglected to-do list and the kitchen for a good while. I might even finally beat Turtle at Candy Land.
I mean, first of all, fuck 2017. This year has been a terrible year pretty much from start to finish.
First there was the inaugural garbage that ate our souls with bloody, plaque-ridden teeth. We unwillingly watched as a guy who can’t even run a business with a million dollar head start, white skin, and a penis got crowned pumpkin king of America.
Then, he proceeded to ban a bunch of people and trash relationships with foreign governments and hire the villains from the last season of Justice League Unlimited to run everything and encourage the worst of us to lead all of us and make nice nice with the white supremacists.
I mean… what? I’d say more but you were there and this whole thing is starting to depress me (not literally so don’t call me about it.)
This year has been the source of a great deal of grief for a lot of us. A lesson from previous forays into grief have taught me that this time period doesn’t leave space for much. In fact, in times where grief threw me into depression I found myself using the slowed time and inward turn to focus on letting things go. I am amazed at how this time seems to consistently coincide with winter for me. This year I feel so grateful for it because unlike previous years where I felt like I was saying goodbye to old lovers or giving away that one thing that has stayed with me for so long but outlived its usefulness, I feel like there has been a stinking bag of trash that I’ve just been too lazy to throw away sitting inside me. I’m happy to put these things away, knowing that they’ve been here far past expiration and need to be turned into something else.
I’m making 2018 the year I take out the trash.
I’m leaving behind cynicism and poisonous hot takes. I’ve been trying this out a bit, staying away from academically-disguised takedowns as much as I can and trying my hardest to hear my own feelings on things. In their place, I’m going all in on a commitment to pushing us to be honest, clear and willing to show up for one another even as the politics get more complex.
No more middle-school dance conference calls where people act too cool to speak. I have no patience for that bullshit. My introversion does not support this course of action as I get nervous and have to push through oceans of anxiety just to have a conversation on the phone. I’m going all in on bringing trust into the room everywhere I go because we need each other.
What trash are you trying to clear out in 2018? What will you put in its place?
Be safe, drink clean water, and take care of your heart.